Alone. Alone. Alone.

Alone. Alone. Alone. A strange forbidding satisfaction filled in me as I said out this word to myself. I looked up at the sky. The warm and blue sky was stained with white and black patches of clouds. The faint beams of the Sun were falling on the grass. My eyes looked up and I took a dry glance around. Some new flowers had blossomed, the trees bore some new leaves; and the grass had grown a little more.
I walked. I wasn't sure if I wanted to do this, if I could really do this but still, I walked more. Various thought muddled my mind. Despite the cluttered thoughts, I went on. I was taken aback by the strength that was driving me further. But then I realized that it's maybe becaise I have become numb. Lifelessly, I kept walking.
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I reached there. My eyes moistened. I felt week in my knees, they wobbled. I collapsed and fell down. A voice came from nowhere and it gave me the strength to get up. I looked up. Nothing had changed here. She was still here, waiting for me. I hugged her. I felt safe, protected. I found out how much I was missing her, was missing us. I spoke my heart out and she listened to everything. She did not talk to me, she remained quiet but the silence answered all my questions. I sat there until it was time for me to go. I kissed her and got up to leave. I looked at her again. Her, her arena, her grave.

I touched my face, it seemed wet. And today, even the tears tasted sweet...

This then, was the end...

Nothing has changed in these four days, 
neither the shiny stars, nor the sun rays.

My world did not cease to exist
when you left me alone that fateful day.
My bones did not crumble
when your words hit me the hard way.

The sky didn't fall,
The clouds didn't burst.
My unattended call,
this call of thirst.
My throat has gone dry,
my eyes no longer cry.
These scars have grown too deep,
and they refuse to weep.

So let this anesthetized numbness be my companion of the night,
and let the night continue forever for I don't want to face the light...